New Music Tuesday

Drama

The other day I had a talk with the boys about the current job situation. I let them know that one of the things I have to look at right now is that I may have to sell the house (remember when I said about disappointing them). I explained that I had to tell the mortgage company that I can't make the payments but that it would take a few months to sell and that if something changed in the meantime it could always be stopped. I told them I have a good piece of equity in the house (mortgage is about 60% of the value of the house) and, again, if a job came up later rather than sooner that would be used to put down on a new place.

Scott seemed to understand but Sean lit into me, which caught me by surprise. He said some pretty hurtful things which I didn't push at the time since I knew he was angry. Needless to say it's been pretty frosty between us these last few days. I have to let my anger go down before talking about this again with him.

In the meantime unemployment has ended so I've taken a part time job. I make in 10 hours what I used to earn in 2. There are mouths to feed. Good times.

Too Old

I'm even too old for this. Damn, I'd be earning about $2,250 per hour.

New Year? Let's Hope So

Last year has a better chance of making it into my bottom 5 than top five. To top it off I started the new one with a nice head cold. But New Years Eve was a lot of fun so I guess I'm even. So far.

Chris spent his holidays on a deserted base in cold Germany. I could tell when speaking to him that he wasn't happy with how his holidays turned out. He's finding out the Army is a lot tougher than I was when he screws up. Right now he's scheduled to come home around February 2nd for 2 weeks. I hope he behaves himself this time.

Sean is becoming quite a good guitar player. Right now it's mostly Black Sabbath "War Pigs" and "Paranoid". I hope he learns another song soon, just for a change of pace for my ears. I'm not bothered by the distortion or loudness of his playing, and I guess that's because this is music I grew up with. Then I thought about what I put my parents through, and how they could call this music "noise". Those poor people.

Scott has been learning the bass and they were thinking about getting a band together with a few friends. But Sean is such a bully with Scott that Scott has no interest in it. It's too bad because they could both help each other learn if they could just get along. Fortunately Scott is the more gregarious of the two so his wider circle of friends keep him occupied in other areas.

The job front is going nowhere. I've been on several interviews in the past few months, all of which I am qualified for, but no offers. What sucks is I still see a couple of them advertising the position as still open. I'm starting to think that it's coming down to what someone said a few weeks back. "Dude, you're old".

Maybe it's time to look in a different direction, a change of scenery. But that change would bring about a drastic lifestyle change (the income would be nowhere close to the same). If it was just me it wouldn't be so bad. But I have the other guys to think about too. I get tired of disappointing them.